I'm being real with you guys. I honestly can't believe this is my fetish!
All the weight I've gained, all the stuffings and the laziness.. giving up on being fit and athletic. This video is basically a reflection on that. I know I've been active as a feedee for a few years now, but it's honestly still crazy to me. It's not something I ever imagined I'd be doing even five years ago.
Back then, I was working out several times a week. Now, even my feeder is pleading with me to go to the gym with him. I've just grown so used to this lifestyle- eating anything I want and lazing around constantly. Those have become my most favorite things, and I just can't see myself parting with them to be thinner and fitter. No way.
But that doesn't make what I'm doing feel any more "normal" to me. I'm eating myself into a blimp! I used to have such a tight, perky body. But it's all gone so soft and swollen- with stretchmarks and dimples of cellulite. I've changed my body forever and, while I love my shape, it also makes me feel a little self-conscious sometimes.
Listen to me talk about:
- gaining weight
- losing weight
- doctor visits
- dark feedism topics
- guilty stuffings
- basically a window into my life as a feedee.