you've purged all your anal toys again. you're beginning to feel weak again. you're trying to fight it but you catch yourself looking at cock in straight porn. you thrust your hips as you stroke it and imagine you're the slutty woman in the video taking cock.
you miss cumming with your ass full. you're starting to think you've made a mistake by throwing out all your slutty butt toys. Draining yourself through your ass was total completion. Now, you're lucky if you even cum. Sometimes you spurt out a couple little loads but you're never complete. you won't feel fully finished until you fuck your ass again.
you won't be fucking your ass tonight, though. you don't have the plugs, beads or dildos. Instead, you'll be denied anal masturbation and your cock will have to do all the work. your asshole will be teased until your begging for cock inside of you again.